Ohh. Miyazaki. I wub miyazaki. La lang.
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Letters letters full of letters. Can you differentiate a bug and a bee? Who should it bee? My sweet darling baby? U-huh. C'mon, listen to the tune of pamparampam.
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Revolutions. Return. Crusade. Three is sweet.
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Back to being me again. Jay-r who loves to complain. Jay-r who loves to be a bitch. Jay-r who only wants to keep the team at its best.
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As previously mentioned, I am officially ranting our newest-est team lead. Background first, he came from a Japanese company. I was told that he handled half of the floor. Sadly though, he was only good with papers, etc. When it comes with people, he suck.
So, we had this meeting like two weeks ago and we were there lashing out what we hate. And I learned that, he can't control us. Especially me. It came into a point when I had some P.I.'s into the air. And what did he do? He raised his voice. It is a way of telling me that he can't handle bad words. He could've said, "Hey, no smart ass languages here". But no, he didn't do that. He fought back.
And then he hated my wonderful idea of writing letters. or e-mail to everyone. He just gave me this smart-alec reply "pag sa email kasi maraming ibig sabihin yan, dapat pag-usapan natin yan". So, it came to a point that they had to make fun of me making mails. I don't get that. Really. We also have meetings but I didn't see anyone writing the minutes of the meeting. And why should I be doing that? Duh.
And also that point when all of us had to understand that crying little boy (look at him right now, he complains a lot and it came to a point earlier that somebody is doing his job for him, and there were around three people who were helping him. Talk about being spoiled. From what I heard he was number three in his batch. Pweh!... hhhmm... plagiarism). He loved that boy so much that no beating came out of him to this boy. That boy never knew he was wrong. That boy still is a special child in our team (one of our teammates had to teach him almost everything to the point of sacrificing the team's billing hours). So, I heard he was this great person in that previous company and nobody will be in the edge of alanganin. Well,me and my batchmate doesn't see that.
And I checked his billing hours for the week (I still have to verify this). Looks like he's not doing anything. Zero billing hours? (I hope i'm wrong). Still, a lot of people are noticing that he's not doing anything. Aaahhh... the art of doing nothing. The shame.
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Moving on, I am currently on email flame with my team lead and here's the thread of flame-mails.
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Hello.
I'll be coming in before eleven.
Even though that I know that you don't like me doing e-mails with regards to confrontation, etc. i'll still be pursuing this. I believe this is a professional way of dealing things.
Our team may know about that last mail sent yesterday by Glen. I didn't read it the whole day because I know that something is coming. I was right. I read it during the night and I was disturbed, dismayed, and felt angry reading it.
I'm not stupid and we aren't but, for me, that mail is not right coming from him. One of the things that i've noticed is that it felt that he doesn't know that he's wrong. I'm not saying that he is wrong but I hate people who do things like that (like sending that kind of mail).
I don't want to give suggestions or anything regarding actions for that. I'm just so frustrated right now.
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So here's his answer.
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Hi!
Thank you for your email. I don't know if you mean that what **** has written isn't an excuse, if so, I agree. Anything that he has written isn't really an excuse. When we had our meeting, he himself acknowledges that he knows the background or nature of his work.
Anyway, keep your cool. Let's not get carried away with the situation. Instead let's help one another and do what you think is the right thing to do as employees of this company.
For the mean time, being a senior employee than ****, I ask for your understanding if wouldn't be too much to ask for.
Hoping for your support.
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So, what did I get? Nothing. Instead, he told me to adjust for that little brat bastard. And how about me? 48 hour weekend support? I'm effing drained you incompetent fool!
So... here's my angry reply.
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No, i'm not going to work with somebody who has no proper work ethics.
I am not going to let this pass. I've done a lot of understanding already.
It is not actually my job to understand my peers. I'm just a programmer in this company.
I'm not paid for management work or human resource work.
I've already forwarded this complain to the HR department.
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An angry mail should be answered with an angry mail too. Just a little background. I was trying to cool off actually when I read that mail but my heart and mind says no. I felt that he's not even taking me seriously because of my jolly personality. I did send that brat's email to the HR, and told me to cool off too. At least they know what's happening. Honestly, i'm on the verge of just breaking out. I don't know if I could still contain myself. I was also told that they are looking at each other's asses because they are new. But that's just shit. My point here is, he is in the position as a team leader, a part of the management. Do I have to tell him directly that "Hey! Do your effing job. You're not doing anything all day. And you want me to understand you and your brat? F you, you shit."
And again, this is his "angry" reply:
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Okay, I will not force you if that is the way you want to do it.
In my opinion, the person's work ethics will not improve if you will stay that way. You must try, as I have said earlier, you being more senior than him should understand his actions considering this is his first job. If you have to insist that you're through understanding people, I cannot do anything about it. Understanding him is not "management work or human resource work" if I may quote you, I believe it is called "getting along with your collegues"or "pakikisama". Then again, if you're through "understanding", then so be it.
If you really still believe that it is not your job to understand your peers, then who do you expect to understand them for you? Do you expect me to understand him for you? If you refuse to understand not only your peers but also other people, how would you expect them to understand you back? Also by refusing to understand, only means that you're mind is closed to others opinions, ideas, and their behavior included. You're only focused on what you believe in and tend to forget other people's perspective. If at this point you still believe it's not your job or it's "management work or human resource", I am resting my case.
If you have already forwarded this complaint of yours to HR, well I guess I cannot do anything about that.
I just want you to know that I am not arguing with you or anything, I am just citing my opinion. If you any reaction or comments, please feel free to email me.
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And my answer...
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Excuse me. I've tried. Okay? I know i've done my part. Isn't it insulting that he will tell everyone that he only had help with Ian? Did you even know that I tried to understand him when he was new. He doesn't respect me and what do you expect from me? Would I tell him that he shouldn't do this or that? I don't think so.
Being new is a bad argument. If you're basing it this way, then i'll answer about what work I had. My first work was from a call center, it was the first time I encountered that kind of work. Night shift and I had to extend my work hours because it was needed. My point is I never complained with work. If you want complains then i'll tell mine to give you information, just to make it clear to you that having this on-call is also of my disadvantage.
And regarding "pakikisama". That argument again for me is bad. If you're for "pakikisama" and work will be compromised then I can't argue with that. That's what you want. But tell me. Just tell me right now, if I don't know how to get along with my colleagues then I'm sure I shouldn't have many friends in and out of SVI. Just to inform you, I was even the one offering our services to Glen's batch regarding help during training. So, tell me. Is that non-"pakikisama"?
You know what, you're being fallacious. Tell me, when you say peers, you say everyone right? I mean I'm just irked with one person. I told you that it's not my job anymore because i'm giving up with the idea that I could help him. And why are you giving me questions as answers? Why can't you give me your straight opinion? Please, don't give me questions as an answer. I'm not giving in on that.
All in all, this is my point. If I may, "bakit mo bine-beybi sya?". Have you guys ever told him or talked to him about what's happening? I feel that it's the other way around. If you did talked to him, then you should've told me about that right now. Apparently not. I am still wondering why we are giving him special treatment and let those things that he did go. If I may again, "kinukunsinti nyo lang sya". I feel that you are not taking me seriously.
Well, who am I to decide what you guys want to do. And if you want things to be done this way then I won't argue anymore. It would be futile and useless.
In case, you're wondering why i'm like this. I'm upset. I can't work and I have no focus in anything.
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I am drained with regards to this stupid team that we're having. I am in a brink of breakdown. Really. My defense mechanism is telling me to have fun and take a rest. And I know I won't get that luxury.
Mr team leader, I am really paid to be a programmer. It is really not my job to understand you guys but i've been doing it otherwise. And my main point above all is you are the Team Lead. Please do your job well. You are being paid with loads of cash and you aren't even doing your job well.
This may sound so selfish but he should understand me. Instead of biting back, he should see what's my point of view. No, i'm not yet a senior programmer, yet I feel one.
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Now, i'm more depressed than ever.
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